During the last 48 hours, I identified at least three different things that would make great blog posts.
- Funny stories.
- Feel good angle.
- Can’t remember them!
UGH! And yet, if you asked me what someone who was mean said to me five years ago, I can probably tell you.
- The accidental goofs.
- Rude drivers.
- Crazy ex’s – all easy to remember.
I’m sort of shocked at how hard remembering the good of the last few days is.
- And how easy it is to tap the less fun, ticked-off moments.
- I’ve got some work to do in changing my emotional true north.
- And need to just let go of some of that stuff!
How do you remember all the good that happens every day in your life?
Last week was totally overwhelming.
- Three deaths of people we knew.
- All the tragedy going on around us.
- My circuits were fried.
Thankfully I had a photo shoot scheduled for Saturday morning.
- With Her & Him Studio.
- Two people to make me look and feel gorgeous.
- My tired soul ate up the focus on beauty!
Her & Him Studio is run by my improv teachers.
- They are a very talented and creative married couple.
- She did my hair and make up before the shoot.
- He was the master of the studio prep.
I loved being fussed over by both Jason and Moni.
- They also super fun and I laughed a lot.
- Usually I’m really nervous in photo shoots.
- This was like hanging out with friends who wouldn’t put their cameras away.
Jason set the background and lighting to show off my red hair.
- We did four different outfits.
- Primped between each shot.
- Then went out into the forest behind their house for some more photos!
I left there feeling rather famous and on a total beauty high!
- Decided to take a few selfies of my own to capture Moni’s work.
- Of course, the girls and James got into the action.
- More fun photos and photo bombs too – thanks Ruby!
I can’t wait to see my fabulous photos later this week.
- Even if I broke the camera – which I don’t think I did – it was totally worth what I paid for the experience.
- Giggling and feeling good helped me find my way back to some joy.
- Thank goodness!
What do you do to boost your joy when life feels overwhelming?
The last few days have definitely been a roller coaster ride.
- From the shocks of the needless deaths around the country.
- To a pedicure with my beautiful pregnant niece.
- And the death of a family member.
I thought I was doing really well accepting my dad’s passing.
- It’s been more than two years.
- Of course I miss him.
- And I’ve grown so much.
Uncle Paul’s death and my closeness with his daughter has lit me up like a disco board.
- Sad for his death.
- Wanting to be supportive of both James and Paul’s daughter.
- And deep old wounds challenging how I really feel.
At times it feels like a ping pong game.
There is a seduction to digging out those old hurts.
- Tapping into others grief giving me permission to revisit mine.
- And even more.
- It’s tiring.
The good news is I can smile (and cry a few tears) with memories of my dad.
- The old wounds rising up are phantoms.
- There’s not massive pain there any more.
- Just a sweet missing my dad.
It’s been a time of extreme learning for me – again.
- I don’t have joy over any of the deaths – personal, friends and collective at large.
- And yet there is still joy to be experienced.
- In the world and my life.
I’m going to the viewing tomorrow up in Sparta, MI.
- It’s almost a three-hour drive for me.
- My dirty little secret: I usually get very light headed or pass out when I go to funeral homes.
- And will be by myself – James is attending the funeral and such the next day.
I haven’t quite figured out how I’m going to pull everything off as far as tomorrow goes.
- I’m taking food with me.
- Stopping to see my aunt after the viewing on the way home.
- Have CDs picked out for the drive time.
Any advice for me? How do you handle the roller coaster days?
If nothing else, the next blog post should be a doozy!